Here we go

I apologize setting up the private blog and then not posting right away. We have been so busy with school and baseball (J began playing this season) and life in general that it's been hard for me to find a spare moment to sit down and update. All of this, coupled with feelings of fear and uncertainty, not wanting my heart to dive in fully for fear of more heartache.

With that, it's probably clear that our family has begun our process once again. It's very exciting to be back on our journey, but, as I just stated, a little hard, too. We have yet to tell our family- we just don't want to deal with the 20-questions we will certainly get from everyone- and we have a huge family! Some are a little outspoken and to be honest, we just don't want some of their opinions at the moment. We are waiting until our dossier is finished and submitted before opening up about his. The only ones that know/will know are the ones that we need letters and such from for our home study update.

When we began this journey over 2 years ago, I was filled with great hope and anticipation about who our daughter is and how we would feel when we find her, the fairy tale of adding to our family, I suppose. It's returning to me, but very slowly. I've spent many hours in prayer- and continue to do so- because I know it is our Heavenly Father who has put us on this journey and in knowing this, there is a child out there that He has known since the beginning of time would be ours. I opened His word a few days ago and was brought to Galatians, thinking that the verses I was looking up were about something completely different (I meant to turn to Philippians). God spoke to my heart in Gal 1:5- "In love He predestined us to be adopted as His sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with His pleasure and will." He spoke into my heart that just as He has known His children that He has adopted into His family since "the creation of the world" (from Gal 1:4), He most certainly knows the child He has to be a member of our family. I'm resting in that.

I've been catching up on other's blogs over the past week or so. It brings great joy to my heart to update on your stories. I've missed you all!!! Very much!

Comments

[Debbie]

So glad to hear you're on the journey to find your Sunshine again. Looking forward to following along and will be praying as you get ready and wait.

[Kristine]

I am very excited for you that you are back on the journey to your new little one. It is good to "hear" the excitement in your words. God has a plan for your family and for a child and it will be a wonderful thing when you are all together and can look back on all of the things that only He could have done to put you together...you will be amazed!

Thank you for including me in your private blog!

Kristine

[christen]

I'm so thankful to be able to follow along on your adoption journey. Frank and I have had our share of things come up that have stalled our process. It seems that most blogs I read are now home and settled and I was beginning to feel like the only one left waiting.

[Rachel (Troy & Daniel)]

I'm so glad to see a post from you. Congratulations on starting your journey. I can't wait to follow along! I read in the post above that you got your fingerprinting appointments! How exciting to get those so quickly!